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Sat, 01 Jan 2005 05:10:57 GMT

I dont know what 2005 holds for us
but you all better watch out
love you all
-breaking all silence-

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 00:44:21 GMT

Since everyone seems to be doing this, i will also.

im just going to make a list of things i liked, and things i didnt like.

-----------------------------likes-------------------------------------
This year i enjoyed that i was in 10th grade and not in 9th
-i have grown up a lot
-decided that i shouldnt let myself get down on things that are completley stupid.
-learned to speak my mind, i dont give a shit about what i say about anyone anymore, half the times its true.
-learned that the more incompasstionate i am at dealing with things, the easier it is to get over it.
-barley had any girlfriends, and im glad, no problems.
-got a job
-EXPANDED MY TASTE IN MUSIC, LEAVING THE OLD STUFF BEHIND. METAL/HARDCORE MUSIC IS MY LIFE.
-played in a band for about half a year. 2004 always remember FORTHEFEW
-started a new band, BREAKING ALL SILENCE.
-became really good friends with brandon/brandon/alex/molly.
-playing some local shows with for the few.
-getting my drumset
-got decent at drums
-learned that the school band is a joke, and i need to drop out of it.
-getting a cell phone
----------------------------------------------------dislikes--
-fighting with justin and brandon a lot. the other people i got into a fight with i really dont care, nor do i care about you.
-justin quitting the band, even though its probably for the best.
-not meeting any new friends that actually turned out to by best friends.
-having any form of relationship with certain people who all they do is complain on how people talk about them.

there really isnt any dislikes

goodbye 2004

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 04:38:11 GMT

Everyone pick two bands that they listen to when your angry, or just want to release energy, and tell why.

1.Bleeding Through-Because i can almost mask my voice to sound like the singers and the music is just crazy.
2.As I Lay Dying-because its always upbeat music with a good drummer.

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 23:04:41 GMT

oh and
1 more
i want to jump off a bridge, survive, then get hit by a car, survive, and the fall off a cliff and survive, then drink a lot as a celebration.

for some reason, that seems really fun

hahahaha im bored

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 23:01:18 GMT

Here is my list of things i wish i could do during the rest of the break.

1.get into a really big fight.
2.meet new girls, girls who arent messed up, peferable medium height blonde haired girls that like heavy music.
3.dye my hair black and red.
4.watch scary movies with a girl.
5.buy a portable dvd player.
6.not go back to school.

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 05:01:20 GMT

Christmas today

it was fun

Got my DW double pedal. thats all i wanted from my family
brother gave me best buy gift card
then i got 200 from the rest of my family at my aunts, and some gas cards and nice stuff, man im lucky.

so nothing is really new, Breaking All Silence is turning out really sweet, cant wait to get bass player/shows.

thats all
cya

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 16:42:18 GMT

So I haven't written in about a month, not like its important.

Last Saturday stayed the nights at Ashleys/Matts
it was really really fun

Sunday wasnt important

Monday we had band practice, without justin, he quit. SO IF ANYONE IS LOOKING TO PLAY BASS IN A BAND THAT LIKES NORMA JEAN, THE BLED, POISON THE WELL, ATREYU, THAT TYPE OF MUSIC, CONTACT ME AT xelegyforafriend, BRANDON AT some1islost. Thank you

Tuesday
band practice with brandon 2, it was fun as hell, then hung out with the bros, played a game that shocked you, didnt like that
watched a little of dawn of the dead, haha brandon thought when you kill people in movies, they really kill them. then took brandon home, hung out wiht alex, painted stuff, then took him home. Today not much going on Funeral for Mr Paul Shelton. RIP.You will be greatly missed by all.

hopefully going to the show tonight, i gotta see.

tommorow work

friday
christmas eve
saturday
christmas
joy

i fall for you

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 06:42:46 GMT

So its kinda late in the night, and i have to go to church early tommorow. ok.

Havent updated in about 25 days or something i dont remember.

I finally got windows XP onto my computer which is good for sole privacy purposes and not having to log off AAIM everytime.

Thanksgiving Parade was kinda fun, kinda cold..

nothing new latley..
really really hot new girl at work, and shes my age, ahh work is grand.

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 02:52:36 GMT

MY BIRTHDAY PARTY TOMMOROW
I CANT REMEMBER WHO I INVTIED SINCE I ADDED LIKE 10
SO IM FIGURING 30, AND IF YOU SICK, TELL ME PLEASE

30080 MERRICK
MAPQUEST IT

CELL 1-586-703-7721
HOME 573 0825

7-11

PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU NEED SOME INFORMATION

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 01:56:54 GMT

so i need more people responding if your comming to my party

here are the people that are

brandon, dennis, alex, justin, chris, dennis, matt, sarah, biaohua, mooly, matt, maybe ashley, maybe taylor, carolyn, stephanie, maybe natalie, brad, sam

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 21:56:30 GMT

I never realized how important the band really was to me.
Everytime there is a problem, making music is fun.

This is a lesson I learned, and still am..... Not everyone is going to like us, and people have their opinions, and you should never take for granted the band or the fan base you might hold. Everyone needs to respect everyones opinions.

Me and Brandon fought today, it was the sweetest thing I have done in a while.

SS lyrics are on the previous entry.

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 19:30:44 GMT

-ss-lyrics-here they are

we're all dead (in our graves)
but you're just gone (without a trace)
we ask around (to strangers without faces)
but they dont know (they dont know)

now say hello to these new begginings
lost with new hope, and these new fears
cremate the old feelings
and throw the ashes down memory lane
and wipe away the bleedings
and forget the constant pains

I miss you (so damn much)
where are you? (you're out of my sight)
we ask around (to stangers without faces)
but they dont know (they dont know)

so goodbye quiet nights
throw away the ashes and the lights
throw away the embers and the fights
and scream, until the morning comes. (till the morning comes)

we couldnt be saved by your old lies
we couldnt be saved by your old excuses
you couldnt save us when everything seemed so perfect (you're not perfect, you're just like me)
you couldnt save us when everything seemed ok

so goodbye quiet nights
throw away the ashes and the lights
throw away the embers and the fights
and scream, until the morning comes. (till the morning comes)

schools gay
i debated with a black girl

brandons over
show the 13th
be there.

knights of columbus
warren
9 mile
thanks

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 03:44:59 GMT

So, today being a Saturday I dont work, nor do I ever.

The morning sucked.
I went to church and after went out to eat at friars with my dad. came home and worked on some stuff, like the new backround in my journal. talked stuff out and talked to people

Birthday party on the 29, please respond if your comming

it will be from 7-11
and it will be outside with a big bonfire
and for the few will be playing.

the list of people who i invited.
justin,brandon,alex,brandon,natalie,sarah,matt,matt,chris,marissa,mooly,greg,dennis,taylor,ashley,carolyn,stephanie,biaohua,kayla,casey, vince
If i forgot, sorry. Comment, i can only have 20 some people.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 21:33:23 GMT

www.purevolume.com/therealforthefew

comment what you think

Project todays and stuff, birthday soon, car soon, birthday party soon, halloween soon, girlfriend, not soon.

Birthday Party

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 02:16:42 GMT

So to all my friends who are going to the CIS show, or the halloween dance, that is the day of my birthday party, MIND you, im turning 16, so i have a friends list set, and whatever if you dont come you dont come. but you can always see cis or go to a dance another time, i only turn 16 once, thanks.

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 02:00:26 GMT

Today. was boring, then good
school was same
i love movies

After school i was planning on doing nothing
but brandons like
im comming home with you, so i was like ok
we got back
jammed
went to 7-11 and then i yelled at a car
he stopped got out and told me to over to him (yelled) we biked as fast as we could away. (the highlight of my day)

got back
dennis showed up
hung out, it was pretty fun, jammed, listen to The Bled and FBTMOF and stuff, then dennis left
i broke my snare head
went outside
had a fire, played with army men, london bridges fell down today, it was great, and then dennis came back
listened to more music
waited for my mom
went to guitar center and bought a new head
yupp
i love you

bye

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 01:00:51 GMT

Yesterday was not the night I was anticipating, but yet it was pretty good.

I went to justins, we went on the computer, burned dvd and shit, watched eighteen visions doc. then went to subway. came to my house and ate.
Carolyn and Stephanie showed up, then Brandon and Alex, i wanted to play my drums so i did. yeah ok. Went to kennys, no marshmellows, then 711, no marshmellows. assholes
came back
biaohua came
fire
inside
talked
guitar
bass
music
yeah
girls left
biaohua left
we screwed around with masks, talked to rudi and casey, and yeah fun fun, scared a car with my mask, talked to lori, and stuff. came back people left.

Today went to church
friars
best buy
jo ann fabrics
bought halloween stuff
decorated my drumset (by the way, its awesome)
and oh sarah called last night
crying
talked to her
today
nothing is resolved, i still stand by my decisions
then
fixed up my hoodie
just ask to see it
ftf

yeah
homework
music
and uhhh

cant type anymore, leave comments filled with lovliness, because i hate you all, so try to get me to unhate you. ok bye thanks i love you, ok haha no.. id ontknow

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 17:06:48 GMT

Here is my appology and my away letter to you.

Sarah-1. I do appologize for the harsh words I told you on the phone, I was pissed and I said some bad things. I didnt mean half of them but I did say some words I meant. We have been through a lot, but the road stops here from now, regardless if you care last night, having you laugh at me because of it shows your completely inconsiderate of how I felt and I dont think I can talk to you on the level that I talk to other people, your not understanding.
2.I dont know how you could talk to me on the phone everyday and tell me everything you have ever said. You are a liar and I do not want any parts in your lies anymore.
3. I dont want to talk to you much anymore, all it does is lead to problems and i think its better off this way.

-the sad thing, we were never going out, but we had a certain friendship that I dont have with a lot of people and to throw it out is for the best because everything I hear you do makes me sick.-

4. I would not have gotten mad if you didnt lie to me and come out straight foward, you know how I am, sure i would have got mad but when have I never forgave you?

This goes out to Nate and Sarah, You guys can be happy with each other, I really dont care, but the fact that you had to lie about it, and cross my back was wrong. Nate you knew I liked her, and you making out with her and rubbing her and what not is wrong. When you knew I liked her, and you knew how upset I would get, I guess it means nothing to the both of you.

5. Maybe I will see you around sarah.

I am not taking back the -hatred i felt last night-calling you a whore-and saying i never want to talk to you again, because its bullshit and i dont need a friendship with you.

EVERYONE WHO WARNED ME ABOUT HER, THANK YOU BECAUSE THE FACT THAT I SHOWED STUBBORNESS AND STUCK UP FOR HER WAS THE WORST MISTAKE I HAVE MADE.

THank you

Vella, Dont comment.

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 20:40:21 GMT

Ok so things have been sweet. I love seeing Sarah before first hour, you know shes my best friend, duhhh.
1st hour is sweet. wouldnt change a thing
2nd hour is my favorite, i love ms. munck (sp) and having brandon in the class
3rd hour is funny
4th hour is fun and funny SHADEAR!!!
Lunch is great, Lisa Nate Kim Beasly Andy Ahh all great people, anndddddd Sarah but she has detention with the best teacher in the world
5th hour owns
6th hour sucks, not a lot of friends, and the teacher is wack.

After school today was fun, hung out with sarah and jen it was great

im out
bye

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 03:51:20 GMT

Three times in a row,
I have watched you fall apart
Like the leaves in the autumn
and like the fire in my heart

Too hard to imagine what you must be going through
but its the same here, everything is alike
too many times have I watched the sky fall
and all the nights have been taken away by everything we hate
the lights have dimmed and the and the people you love crash into the wall
tearing apart with every word you said that you never meant but you tried to tell us that you were just lying

The pictures have been burned and all i remember is nothing
i fell into the fire another time now and you were there too see me to it
and i dont know what the meaning of this is but i tried to tell you once before
that everything i do is for you
to understand what i feel and the things that we have been through
and the future seems so black but i know there is light
so take my hand and light my path because im so safe when im with you

Too hard to imagine what you must be going through
but its the same here, everything is alike
too many times have I watched the sky fall
and all the nights have been taken away by everything we hate
the lights have dimmed and the and the people you love crash into the wall
tearing apart with every word you said that you never meant but you tried to tell us that you were just lying

I will watch everything crash down like it was prophicized
and ill read the words that everyone wrote and all the predictions in the world couldnt lead me to this one
all the hymns are being sung and the scripture is being spoken
im standing here shit out of luck with nothing to grab onto but you pen
that you used to write me letter in when we were young and now the time has come
when we throw out our past because we are 15 years older and the decisions we make will be tossed out because everything has meant nothing but in the period of nothing, it meant everything.

Im a little soft spoken today, thought id write.

recording today, it was great ss almost done

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 04:30:45 GMT

Today, practice from 1- 515, it was a great long practice with no fighitng except the tension of working on each song for about an hour., i enjoyed it.

Then came home and did nothing, went to friars, get paycheck, talk to everyone
then i asked chris if he wanted to go to the fair. he picked me and dennis up and had fun.

things between me and sarah are good now, i dont hate her and stuff and i said some really mean things, and im really sorry. <3

that was my day, im scik sore throat, yeah medicine doesnt work.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 18:05:10 GMT

Today I didnt go to school, I had to stay home and just chill for a day, I had work yesterday, plus band practice, plus school, i didnt arrive home until 930, i had no time for homework, and my schedule would have went the same way today, so i thought if i stayed home today, get my homework tommorow and work on all my homework this weekend and get back in the routine again.

My drumset is home for like the first time in a couple of months, where i can actually play it, its been nice to have it here and practice jazz and other stuff.

Dateless for homecomming, dont know if im going.

Maybe my 16th birthday party will take place oct. 29th, yeah its far but i gotta plan ahead.

Been kinda down latley, but whatever.

Football game tommorow, should be nice, those are always enjoyable.

Saturday night i dont think im going anything, anyone wannah hang out, call me.

Bye

yeah buddy

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 05:14:47 GMT

i made this

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 03:42:37 GMT

So I haven't really been doing anything latley. well i have i lied.

First i would like to thank sandra for making my journal sweet. thank you <3

Yesterday, I went to work at 4, started my clean up early and got rushed outta there by my good friends, justin alex vince and chris. chris drove what a guy. and then right when i got there i set up my set right away, and we played our four songs, it went pretty good, but be prepared new and a lot better ones comming soon. so enjoy.

After the show Me and Brandon spent the night at Justins house and we went to burger king with chuck, i got my food, complaned that it wasnt what i wanted, bitched at the lady and got a new one. went back to justins house after i round house kicked brandon in the balls (by accident, i didnt mean to hit you that hard, or in that spot) but it was preetty damn funny. then they played bass and guitar while i just talked on the phone, not a good convo. yeah. things arent good. Then i went downstairs all fucked up and it was pretty funny. then i ended up falling asleep.

I guess i moan in my sleep, haha and i always sleep with my mouth open, and justin took a picture that i have yet to see.

Then i woke up at 2, which i had to go home to get ready for work at 4, went to work and did the usual, got really pissed off at the dishwasher but eh, albo. then talked to the guys about something which im looking foward to and then i came home. and thats about it, tommorow i work from 3-1030.
monday band practice from 230-4 maybe get out early for seg. 2 depending how my money issue works out and my work schedule, after that i should be jamming with justin and brandon not sure, then tuesday school starts which is ok i guess.

then sept. 3 great. haha im not telling though.

see ya a very long entry.

For the Few would like to see some of the pictures so comment me on that.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 03:25:07 GMT

lostxkitty is the best.

<3|Sandra